Miserable day.

All because of vocal jazz..

Somewhere along the line I pissed two people off,

I still have not gotten acknowledged for my outstanding work and efforts,

I am not being challenged.

Vocal jazz used to be an escape from stress for me. But now it’s the main reason for it. I don’t know what to do.

But I’m done being sorry. I’ve apologized before and now it’s your turn. Because not everything is my fault. I’m tired of being underappreciated. In general. I feel so expendable. Like no one would miss me if I left. Because everyone cares about everyone more than they care about me.

At least this weekend I get to spend some time with my best friend for life. Who I know will always appreciate me no matter what. And who makes me feel like I’m worth the world to her. That’s what I want in a boyfriend.

Someone on my side. Someone to protect me. The only person who does these things for me is Alexis. Partners for life. But she’s not at my school… So I have to face the hardships on my own.

All my friends are in relationships. And when that happens, the quality of friendship goes down, and I hang on by a thread. I’m tired of being the friend who was there for you before him, but you’ll choose him over me.

And I’m so thankful to Katie, Taylor, Loni, Caitlin, Jen and all the people who appreciate, accept, and love me for me! Because I’m a grammar nazi, a bitch, an asshole, crude, rude, and obnoxious. But they love me for it. I’m perfect to them. And if I’m not perfect for you, then I don’t need you in my life.

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